Baby-Trying Update

So...If you can sort of read between the lines on some old posts you may have figured out that we have been trying for a baby for a while now - Since April 2011.  I know it's probably weird to talk about it so openly on this blog when I can't even seem to discuss it openly with friends or family...This just seems easier and more private.  Weird, I know. 

We had a tubal pregnancy last December that resulted in emergency surgery.  We kept on trying but had a setback when I had to have my gallbladder removed in June.  Well, we were at the point in our plan with our doctor that we were going to talk to a fertility person in March of 2013 if not pregnant yet due to my chances being more difficult as I only have one tube now.  Well, about two weeks ago I had horrible pains in my right side and they discovered a cyst on my right ovary...Thought nothing of it until I discovered I was late.  I was pregnant again - Y'all I just can't describe the joy that P. and I felt upon seeing that little "pregnant" message on the screen of the test!  We went that day for an ultrasound and blood work b/c they consider me high risk.  As excited and overjoyed as we were, we once again only got to enjoy the happiness for a week this time as well.  I woke up Thursday morning and knew something wasn't right...

Upon calling the doctor they put me on some meds to try and help, but it was too late.  We have had a hard week and a hard time tying to accept that this was just not our time and not that sweet babies time.  Everything happens for a reason and I pray for God's healing hand to be on our hearts.  We have pushed through this week and are planning a big Thanksgiving celebration with our families. 

I just wanted to share the pain and emotions that we have been going through and that it does get easier and to not give up; if anyone ever stumbles upon this and it helps them, then that was my purpose in writing this.  I feel grateful and blessed that it was not another tubal and that my left tube does seem to be working properly.  That was my silver lining throughout the sadness of the miscarriage.

"Have I not commanded you?  Be strong and courageous.  Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

Joshua 1:9

 

Have a blessed Thanksgiving y'all.

 

I am thankful for my wonderful family, amazing/supportive husband, my snuggle pugs, my faith, and for this blog in allowing me an outlet to express the things I have been feeling and not able to say out loud.

 

XO-T